Monday, January 2, 2017

I had my first failure of 2017

Hi stranger!

Day 2 in and it already happened.  Surprised? Crushed? Mortified?

After my round of Hammer and Chisel at the beginning on 2016 where I leaned out I strove to find a balance.  A balance between my workouts not consuming my life and a balance where I never felt deprived.  A balance where my social life never suffered and I always strove to be the best I could be.  I succeeded in some ways, but I knew I felt the holiday bloat of overeating and I couldn't stop.  My mind knew exactly what I needed to do in order to get back to feeling like me and yet I just let myself keep slipping.  I kept working out, but with a reinjured right ankle (I just can't seem to get it back to normal) I knew my cardio fell short and I lost some of my momentum.  I finished 2016 with a second round of hammer and chisel except for this round I didn't keep my eating as clean as I should have. Did I skip the beers? yes.  But then did I have extra wine? yes, again. Did I dabble in other clean eating tactics that might help me? yes.  Did I order the salad when I wanted pizza or a beer? Guilty as charged.  Maybe somewhere I was hoping that I could find a balance of eating whatever I wanted when in all reality I knew better.  I knew I'd feel bloated and disgusting and yet I let it continue.  I already knew the tools I needed to use to succeed but I was having trouble committing to them.  I felt leanest whenever I ate clean during the week and gave myself 1 "free" meal a week where calories didn't count.  Except I let those habits slip.  Honesty is the best policy right? Time to be brutally honest with myself.

I decided to start 2017 with a round of 3 day refresh.  I had done it twice before and felt amazing.  I wanted that same feeling.  I wanted to give myself a 3 day reset button thinking maybe it would rewrite the damage I had done by not eating my usual amount of vegetables.  During day 1 (on January 1st) I had an epiphany.  What was I doing? Why was I putting myself through something that wasn't going to make me a better person? I was feeling the lack of coffee hangover and felt like I was neglecting the relationships in my life by saying I "had" to do something.  That's not health.  That's not being the best me I can be.  I don't want to deprive my body.  I want to fill it with the things that make me feel strong and healthy.  This isn't some quick fix.  This is my life and I want to make it count.  I want to make a difference.  I want to feel healthy, lean, and strong.  I want to get back to eating my veggies like they're going out of style.  I want to help someone else achieve their health and fitness goals.  I want to focus on how I want my life to look- not how I thought my body has to look.

How am I really starting 2017? With another Beachbody program.  Not a quick fix but a long term plan to take it one day at a time and get back to fueling my body to feeling my best.  My mind knows that when I feel my best, I give my best.  Here's to round 1 of Core de Force where I'm focusing on fueling my body with what it needs to give my best every day.  I'm starting January 9th and I'd love to have you join me!

Happy 2017 blogging world!

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